My goals

I don't think Im going to write many lengthy posts, but I want to try to paint a picture of where I am and where I'd like to take this blog.


I grew up the son of a preacher. I grew up in a house where God's will was the most important factor in every decision (as it should be.) Being who I was, and who my parents were, I always assumed that "full time ministry" was my destiny. I never planned for anything different. I never saw any other options. I never wanted to.

"The plan" all came to a screeching to a halt early 2007 when my then Fiance (now Wife) and I conceived our daughter Addisyn. Suddenly the entire ball game changed. Suddenly I was tainted goods. Suddenly I wasn't good enough.

(My parents, Michele's Parents and our church stood with us every step of the way and we would not be where we are today with out any of them. For the record. :])

In one years time our reality changed drastically. Being newlyweds is a drastic enough change with out the addition of a prematurely born little girl and all the spirital and emotional baggage that comes with the way our marriage began.

Personally it was easier for me to "man up" and just "deal." I immediately owned my responsibilty and focused on working hard to provide for my family. At all costs. In May I will be married 3 years (WOAH!!!) and I have worked 2 jobs MOST of my marriage. I am not complaining. I love my Wife and kids with ALL my heart and would work a thrid job if that's what it took, though I do not see that as neccesary. What I am trying to convey is my family became my life, and rightfully so.

Recently God has been shifting outlook a bit. Though it may not have been the best of ways to get where I am, I am here.  I'm a husband.  I'm a father. Though this is, and has been, part of my identity, the Lord is showing me that the rabbit hole of fatherhood goes WAY deeped than I have appreciated. I have been entrusted mirror the Lord in a very practical visual way.  HE is my Father.  I am Addisyn's father!  I am Peyton's father! WOAH! 


THIS is what I want to explore. THIS is the wonderful calling I have.  THIS is huge.  THIS is one of the greatest things God can call a man to be.  THIS is overwhelming.  Luckily I have A perfect heavenly father and a wonderful earthly father that I can try to be like.  What an adventure!